What made you say yes to reality TV?
I’ve always said that I wouldn’t, but the way that they sold it to me, wasn’t about drama. It’s about trying to show female artists, and how hard it is to be successful in your career. Also, I just had a divorce and had lost my home and everything and I was trying to decide how to provide. I prayed about it.
What was it that made you feel comfortable enough to open up about some of those rough times on camera?
I thought about the fact that I didn’t want my struggle to be for nothing. Not that it’s for nothing–my children benefit from what I’ve learned–but if I can help other people with my story that makes it worthwhile.
Ten years ago you guys were pegged to be the next biggest thing. You were getting calls from some of the most amazing producers on the planet. And then there was a pause. What happened?
We were working on the second album and I found out that I was pregnant. We could have continued working through the pregnancy but I felt like it was my way out of that situation. Although it was a blessing to be able to put my foot in the door of the entertainment industry, it was still not a good environment as far as the different players involved. I was still signed to Interscope and I just decided to work on being a mom and taking care of my family. I got married. You know when you’re pregnant and you hear people talking about you on the radio, sometimes you say to yourself, ‘You know what, maybe I don’t want to be in this entertainment industry. Because people can be really harsh and I’m a human being with feelings and a heart and a soul and these are strangers who know nothing about my life and have an opinion about it.’ That took a little bit of a toll on me and I decided to go ahead and just be a mom. Me having children is not the reason I have not come back out. I just decided to focus more on that than the music. I did other things for income instead of the music. I was in the real estate industry and I was also a chef and I had my own businesses here and there. But music is in my soul and in my heart and I can’t stay away from it. I always continued to be in the studio and create music.
Is new music in the pipeline for you? Will we see you working on new music in this series?
Absolutely! I decided to go hard and start working on an album, as well as acting.
We know who you were 10 years ago. Who are you now?
I’m a grown woman now. I’ve been through a lot. I’m in my 30s now, and I’m a mother. I’m a daughter. I’m a friend. And my friends and my family–I have sacrificed everything for them and that’s who I am at heart and at soul.
Does being a mother now change the way that you will approach the music and the music industry this go around?
I’ll definitely be very hands-on with my contract, who I’m willing to work with and everything else. Music-wise, I have a lot more to say, and a lot more emotion in the way that I say it.